I've been trying over and over again to figure out how to express what I'm thinking about this week, but I'm not sure it's coming out correctly. My neighbor who was diagnosed with cancer at the end of May passed away last Thursday, leaving me in a constant mode of reflection, but even though my thoughts are clear I can't seem to bring them out into words. This has always been an issue of mine, always thinking, but with few outlets available to loosen the trap. I write to let things out, but even then when I get into this deep thinking mode it's not always enough. I'm going to have to throw some words out there on this one, and hopefully it will make sense to someone out there.
Every time I have someone I know pass away, be it a family member, a friend, or someone else I knew well, it sends me into this reflective mode in which I think and think about not only that person, but how many others I've known throughout the years. Some are still here. Some aren't. I find myself entirely overwhelmed at the amount of kindness I have received. Not everyone has that, and I wish this could be more widespread than it is in the world. It's highly likely that this is why I am such a big fan of showing kindness to others, because I know what it's like to experience kindness in difficult situations. That's an ongoing effort for me. I don't always feel like I live up to what I preach, but I try.
I'm in complete awe as I think back on all of the people I have met. Whether it was someone I knew while growing up or someone I met for a moment in some random place in the world on one of my tours or on one of my solo trips at Disneyland, it's all been one amazing ride. There were definitely some I got along more with than others, but I can't hold a grudge worth anything, and perhaps that's a good thing.
I go to the level of thinking that I was allotted a moment exactly when I needed an uplift or encouragement. I can't speak for those involved with me in those moments, but it would be nice to think they were mutually beneficial. It's all been a lovely and amazing adventure!
I talked about writing a poem earlier, but that hasn't come to fruition yet. I need a certain amount of focus to do it, and it's not easy to do that while running around the house with my daily concerns. I'm in the beginnings of a new project for Christmas that involves a lot of poetry writing, so I'm not sure if it will happen for a while. I also require a lot of thinking time before I write it down.
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| I have no reference to the originator of this quote. It's circled social media for a while. It's clearly a thought that I've reflected on at times throughout my life. |
