For instance, since from even before losing that one job, mornings were no longer enjoyable. I didn't want to get up and do anything. That was disconcerting, because I used to love the calm of an early morning. Having family who needed care in the morning forced me to get up and going, but I still struggled. They are gone now and so it's up to me how to deal with my mornings. I had terrible insomnia, and I still have it, and that contributed to my mood, but as of late my mind has been able to settle down enough to get to sleep. When I wake up in the middle of the night, it's getting easier to get back to sleep. As a result, my mood has been much improved. I'm starting to feel more motivated to do things I wasn't doing before.
I feel like I'm living the story of the Secret Garden right now. Honestly, it's been a struggle to feel motivated enough beforehand to take on the yard work, but there's motivation now, and I love the feeling of satisfaction it gives me. It's a sizeable place and gets overwhelming when too many things need to be done, but as I went out this week and worked in spots here and there, I learned how much I was able to do! I love the days when I feel like I've accomplished something! My mom always said that what I needed to get a good sleep was to wear myself out by doing some physical work, and even though she didn't realize that I walked a lot during that time (and it was stress that was the culprit behind my insomnia), she was right. I've been tired enough this week to have few problems sleeping.
Things are looking up right now.
 |
| My once struggling flower in bloom! |
