I was reflecting the other day, and during it, I suddenly had a feeling of amazement overcome me. For weeks I've been going to bed late and waking up extraordinarily early in order to meet the caregiving demands of family. Simply stated, I should be a mess right now with sleep deprivation, yet my energy levels and mental capacity haven't changed much, though I must admit nap time is a precious time these days. Some days I get a little more than others, but it hasn't affected my day much. I learned at a young age when my body needed rest, so I'm quite familiar with the physical signals that tell me when I need to stop and relax. I've found it amazing of all the things I've had to do with assistance and carrying on with daily tasks without problems, with perhaps an exception of a few moody moments when I was still in wake up mode. There was a time a weeks before that it came to me that there were people out there, even people who are still perhaps strangers to me, but know about my situation, who were praying for me as I go on through my daily tasks. I've been feeling those a lot lately, and I'm grateful that they're thinking of me.
In addition to that, I've had a keen feeling within the past few days of something else extraordinarily significant to me. I may have to explain here before I go into this that I believe there's an afterlife, and that death isn't the end. I also believe that the relationships we form here continue, that's friends and associates, and especially family continue on. I've become quite sensitive to feeling the love and support from them, especially those who have passed on. It's a humbling yet strengthening feeling. It's a confirmation to me that even though this takes so much of my time and denies me experiences that I could be having otherwise, it's not a waste of my time, and in the long run it will be an experience I won't regret.
I'm feeling so blessed and thankful. There are so many things I still need to improve, but my friends and family have been amazing in supporting me in all that I'm doing, and I really do appreciate the prayers.
Thank you.
